My therapist explained it to me that this new life is lived on the 2nd floor, and there is no going back to the 1st floor. You can visit the 1st floor but you can’t stay there. They don’t understand and will not until they are faced with the same.
Even now, as my recent posts says that my doc suggested I think of this as being a cure.
But, I am still on the second floor, because of the trauma that I have been through, and the reality I have faced, just can’t be explained to them. My cancer has other social and physical complications, but I choose to set the difficulties aside and move on the best I can.
I am not hiding in shame, but, every time I have told anyone about my cancer, it takes their breath away. That would happen with any cancer; and especially anal cancer. They don’t know what to say.
Keep pushing on YOUR reality.
When you think the flame is going to burn out, protect it because it has more fire to give. I love life. I'm going to stop asking for help and start posting what I really feel if you guys wants to join the journey feel free. taken back because one person heard my message. One person didn't tell me I'm sorry. One person understood my story and ran with it.